What Kind of Family...?

My family I dearly love, with out a doubt. But often I feel as though I don't fit in.. in many ways. For starters, my looks.Everyone in my family has dark brown hair, my two sisters look exactly like my mom, and they all LOOK and ACT alike! My friends used to always joke around and say I must have been adopted, because I didn't match the rest of my family. With my blonde hair, china-doll facial features, concealed personality to randomly outgoing personality, I don't make much of a match.

But it never bothered me, looking different, acting different; and still to this day, it doesnt bother me much. I have come to relize its more that just looking and acting different... My sisters have open personalities, they tell my parents everything - no secrets. But me - well I'm the one who struggles to tell them anything, the one who has plenty of secrets and no one knows, and have gotten introulbe countless times because of my secret and rebel bahavior.

I'm not a terrible child, but when I look at my sisters, I wonder what my parents think of me. Do they wish I was better, more open, more like my sisters, more like them?! I'm not sure, but I do know is that I am happy that I'm different than the rest of my family. Yes, they may not all be "good differents" but still I am so glad I have my own looks, my own secrets... my own me.

What is your family like? Do you fit in? Do you struggle with any of these thoughts ever?

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~a beautiful disaster